sometimes.some hearts just wont quit

i miss him. but theres no comin back.

ive been throu a lot already. i did have enough share of pain, heartache and emptiness. but then, wes imply go on staying there, hoping for the change to come. hoping that yes, my love would lead him back to were we was before. and you bet..the feeling is damn all pain. and its excruciatingly damn hell i almost lost my job.

but a strong person that im always is, i know how to get over. at least only for a momment. and the next minute, its just still there, not even wanting to leave you, consuming your sound mind like that of a cigarrete eager to waste you at any time. heartache and being broken, or the loss of someone you greatly love is one of the hardest battle i had endured.

oh yes, i did love leo much more than he knew. but then again, the battle of surviving his loss was worth everything. because from now on, hes only someone that i used to love.

looking back to the days when you cant grip of your self, all too empty to make the right decision was like being born again. somehow i can see now this very momment that leo did just what is good for me. cool winds doenst make a fine sailor thou.

im stronger now. im not the foolish, submissive easy-go-lucky-i-love-you-person that would easily get too fast into love. I had loved him. it was indeed a beautiful love story for us. and then, after atleast 9 months, he choose to leave it all behind.

so i got no choice but to move on. and you bet its not that easy. it could have been easy thou. but then again...the love was genuine. too unconditional i was blinded. i always lok forward to that morning when my first thought would be not him. then i realize that i had already let him go as well.that may not be the first sunrise but i will go thru dat day knowing that my days wud be better.

and on that sunrise, Amante found me. theres so much promise to wait. and im ready to take i bite. and i am indeed.