Its over

sa fone ko. ang mga pics nmin ni amante ay nka save sa folder wer i named FINALLY....I BELEIVE!!!

Nsa jip kmi ni brian pauwi wen Amante says its over. Its something im prepared to....ready for the worst....and parang wala akong naramdamang pain. i swear..parang nabunutan pa nga ako ng tinik. maybe becoz umiyak nko, and i askd for the strength that i need. anyways yun...tahimik lang kami ni dodong, i need d silence best. i dont have to talk, i dont have to say anything to justify my feelings at that very momment..basta kelangan ko lang ng katahimikan.

"its official, ala n kmi ni amante..."

i send dis txt to close friends..plain and simpple. yun lang...may mga nagreply to give me comfort and all...but all i need is silence. feeling ko namatayan ako ng isa sa importanteng bahagi ng aking pagkatao. and i have to endure it in silence, however, im too brave and nagdunonong dunongan n naman ako, or yet insensitive..in short, manhid.

as i write this entry, i can say that im a different person now. im sick and tired of the drama...ayoko ko din umiyak uli. i dont deserve to suffer, i honestly dont think i wud endure great pain or somethiing...kumbaga, im not that affected at all. di tulad nung naghiwalay kami ni leo, parang nasira ang mundo ko dat tym. nawala ako sa focus and all, pero ngayon, i dnt think so.

sa ngayon, single nko uli...and im gonna be very busy for the next days to come on losing weight and achieving the body i deserve. and i know it cud change d perspective on how i do my lifestyle here. ....yup, first project ko ang pagbabalik ko s gym. next is im gonna party and cruise hahaha im single anyway...i even stop wearing the ring amante gave me.

hmmmmmmm Sahid?