Gay Travel

Ive been to a lot of ups and downs since the first day of May came wid a blast. Una ung cessation to work order ng campaign namin. ok fine haha welcome to the world of unemployed. though i overcome it that in a breeze and cool way possible.

syempre apply to d max ako. sa TRG and HTMT..haggard ang proceso, tutuyuin ang utak mo, ala nman kwenta ang kinalabasan...sa HTMT may bond daw, and if i failed to qualify sa first campaign, bagsak ko ay yung campaign na 13k lng. ok nman si ateh mong recruitent at naintindihan nya when i say NO. sa TRG naman haggard kung haggard. nkakaloka ang interview. i swear, theres dis guy there, he want me to become a talking brochure when i get to ops and its a No No lalo na kung outbound ka, anyway..huwud want to listen to a talking brochure, dba dapat consultative selling? hehe ewan..i was there around 2pm...natapos ang final interview ko almost 2am na din. and its a complete disaster.

so i said, why not try dis tym sa mas stable and more OK call center. ..fast forward...nagtatraining nko sa Peoples support. and its good. i dont regret the wait especially if your waiting for your job offer. hehe

I look forward to a wonderful stay at aegis people support.

and damn, andami akong nakikitang gwapo...pero kay Sahid pa din ako haha!!!

Dis is my diary. my digital diary. Whatever I feel like writing, sinusulat ko, whatever i feel like saying, sinusulat ko. Diary ko ito. Diary na pwedeng basahin ng kahit na sino. However, its still my diary.

Nakilala na ng aking baby ang iba kong mga close friends. C Carlo and haya. Lumabas kaming apat last Sat night. nag malate kami.

its a night to remember.Bakit? kasi now lang ako naging proud ng sobra sa lover ko. and this time, no pretentions, no nonsense relationship. They gave me a two thumbs up for my choice. ahahhaa parang ngayon lang yata ako tumama sa mga nakarelasyon ko.

and now i can say..that..

the search is over, your with me all the while.

if theres one thing i would regret if ever your name come across my messed up brain, its when you somehow occupied my longings. its when i start to appreciate this friendship, making the foolish me want you...and i was like caring for you the other way no one would dare.

and you asked me if i like you. i said yes.

i do have a boyfriend. i love him much than i did for you. our love is a celebration of life.

but we are far from each other. somehow, my heart longs for some1 who is always there. whom i always see. ..unfortunately, its not my boyfriend but it was you.

and we talked about this. and i settled my part, i am in sound mind. i know were to put my self. i dont expect from you. i never did assume anything. i simply practice the honesty to oneself. that i must not keep myself from caring for you from afar..

afar thou your so near.

or maybe i guess, i cared too much, i flirted too much, i almost love you.

and as i chose to leave all these behind, i found some place in my heart thats aching. i only wish i have d guts to walk away and forget about what we had..but i just cant..but i i know i have to, and im pushing all my nerve to do dis...and when i do, he wont come after me..

and i guess thats what hurts the most.

i never thought caring and liking for someone be this painful.

i made my choice. i made up my mind. should you act like i dont exist anymore, so be it. that would be better. that would be fine. sahid that would be fine.

anyways, my heart belongs to Amante.

mamaya na ang alis ko. 6pm ang flight kko to Iloilo.at last magkikita na kami uli ng mahal kong si Amante.

mixed emotion naman daw ako.di ako makatulog knina ng matino. excited ako. natatakot din ako. papano kung may masamang mangyari. papano kung di ko magustuhan ang makikita ko pagdating doon.papano kung di nya talaga ako mahal.?

papano kung si Leo ay bumalik. ? pakshet lang cguro talaga ako.

or papano kung si #$%@ talaga ang mahal ko. hahaha
praning na siguro ko.

Titanic is one of my favorite movie. Di sya nakakasawang ulit uliting panoorin.

i used to have a blog sa blogspot.com. but i chose to delete it. i felt pathetic kasi everytime im updating it. what was there was the side of me na ung tipong di mo kakayaning balikan uli. or mga entries na sobrang bigat basahin minsan you just want to delete every entry of it. and i did.

on that blog i was able to meet lee. a very very good soul. i am inlove with him. we share a world were in super pagmamahal namin sa isat isa ang namamayani. the love im feeling for him is superb. but heres the catch, He is in Europe. Hes a british and we communicate only thru the net. one of the wonders of the world wide web. making the world at the end of my fingertips.

favorite movie ko ang titanic. one of the best. and this morning as i checked my Gmail. i was in for a surprise.

his email was titled Titanic Love.

Hello Ernie,

I hope you slept well on Sunday, i thought about you sleeping safely under a blanket of love.

My friend came to stay with me on Friday for three days. We take it in turns at looking after each other. I made him a French meal on Friday. He said he liked it...not sure that he did.

I get the ideas from my French friends mother when i visit him at his mothers home in France, shes a good cook and is always very kind to me.

We also went to the cinema to see "Taken" it's a fast moving action thriller, I'd recommend it Ernie.

I have an old DVD of the film "Titanic" it's a good film based on a true story of an unsinkable ship on its maiden voyage from Southampton to New York 1912...if you haven't seen it you can probably guess the rest. Anyway, we watched this film over the weekend and i thought of you and i stood at the very front of this ship with the wind blowing through our hair. Of course i wouldn't let anything happen to you and i would keep you safe always.

The theme music from the "Titanic" is for you Ernie, i hope you like it.

http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=saalGKY7ifU

Your words in your last email are so very beautifully written and so lovely to read that i hardly know how to respond. We do have a deep love for each other...its difficult to understand how or why. May be there was just something in our two hearts that reached out to each other.

Thanks for the homework. I had to search the dictionary for quite some time to try and translate what you had written. I think you said "you love me" however, there are a number of alternative meanings in your language, its not always straight forward. I love you too; and i thought of you even though i was with my friend. Actually i imagined it was you sitting next to me in the cinema...just don't tell my friend OK.

Did you have a good weekend at work and achieve your sales target? I would think there must be a lot of pressure on you to achieve your goals each week. I have faith in you Ernie.

Hope you you like the film clip and the theme music. that's you and i at the front of the ship. Just close your eyes and imagine Ernie...its so easy.

Have a wonderful week and take care, you are always in my thoughts

All my love Lee