Events

April 23 198*..a baby muslim boy was born. his name is Sahid. after a decade, I mit him at Havenlink. We started talking and we became very good friends. Until such time he asked if its true dat i like him. i said Yes..I like you a lot.however, im still with Amante dat time... and we continue being good friends.

a lot of things happen between us that actually shape this thing called friendship. He was one of those who helped me cope up with the break up that almost crashed my focus. and eventually, ived move on. Hes one of the reason why its easy as i thought was impossible. and hes special and close to my heart.

April 23, 2009 is his 23rd birthday ( according to his friendster hes only 23). Im not fond of giving gifts unless that person matters a lot. simpleng mga tao lang naman kami haha so when i drop by their place, theyre eating dinner with veggies as their ulam. so plain, so simple and very human to spend his birthday. but i guess the celebration would be this weekend.hehe and there you go, I handed him the gift.he thought it was a book. but he did not expect it would be his favorite one. The book was Letters to sam by Daniel Gottlieb.

he knew the book was hard to found. I look it over ebay, i tried bookstore hopping hoping to chance a copy..but theres no stock available. But patience is a virtue, until I got my copy.. thank goodness. So when i handed him the book, I was thrilled by what im feeling. gosh hes close to kissing me haha..he gave me his sweetest thank you.

I receive a txt message from him, again another thank you. i replied..bcause your special.

eto sya oh..kalbo!!

"Life is like a box of chocolates.you never know what you gonna get."
-Forrest Gump

Forrest Gump was one of my favorite film when I was in high School. If we were asked to make a movie review, I would pick this film. Damn I swear its really really fantastic. hehe

Yesterday, i happen to read the whole movie script and I just cant stop myself. anganda I swear..buti nlng walang nakakahalata. Akala ng katabi ko, may problema ako kc tahimik ko daw at nahihiya syang mang istorbo. haha

"Momma always had a way of explaining things so I could understand them." Forrest Gump

true enough, ang mga nanay natin ay sadyang matalino sa pagpapaintindi satin ng mga bagay bagay hehe specially my mom, well, shes a teacher. I remember uso ang bedtime stories sa mga bata wherein nagbabasa ng kwento ang mga nanay natin hanggang sa makatulog tayo, si mama hindi..shes making kwento and it wont make me sleep kasi discussion yun, she make it a point dat i make tanong so she knows if im following or not. she had her way of explaining things so i could understand dem.

Di ako masyadong pasaway nung bata ako, pero kapag pasaway daw ako, tyak palo ang aabutin ko sa tatay ko..pero mas masakit ang palo ni mama. when i was in high school, kapag may kalokohan akong ginagawa, di na ako pinapalo syempre..emotional attack na ang ginagawa sakin ni mama. she would talk to me and cry. na para bang ansama sama kong tao. true enough, narerealize ko ang mali ko. and dat made me a better person. see, she has a way of explaining things so i could understand dem.

I love You mama..your the best mom.kpag tinitxt ko sya ng ganto, expect mo ang I love you too. shes has her way of assuring me na kahit bakla ang panganay nya, di niya ako kinakahiya. she has her way of explaining things so i could understand of family.

"Just Run away. Forrest" Jenny

Running away from something that could ruin your character or life is not bad. even if could make the coward out of you. maraming instances na akong tumakbo ng tumakbo para lang mailigtas sarili ko sa kapahamakan.

I was bullied during my elementary days. sadyang maraming mga siga na classmate namin and i had my fair share of terrible encounter with them. hehe pero ngayon, kpag nababalitaan ko kung ano na nangyayari sa buhay nila hahaha palakpakan ang mga dukha. most of them are really terrible in dealing with their poor lousy life. hehe bilog ang mundo mga ate. magkwentuhan na lng tayo kung ano ang lifestyle meron ang mga dukha. hmmmnnnn world peace!!!

anyways, if theres one thing that actually rings a bell after reading the whole movie script..its about being man of your own word..being true to your promises. I swear minsan dito ako palpak.

Im just glad merong movie na Forrest Gump.bow

kiss kiss kiss!!!

Im sooo damn bored wid our leads kaya habang making calls, i opt to browse the net..usually mga blogs ang pinagdidiskitahan ko..and ito nman daw ang nakita ko na nagpagising sakin...

MIss Universe Parade of beauties!!!

Beauties of Asia and the Pacific:

Boom! Kabum! Kablam!...AFGHANISTAN!

Harutan, Laplapan, Ariputan…JAPAN!

Mula sa lupa na kulang ang bigas, sandamakmak na mandurugas…PILIPINAS!

King Kong, Kangkong, Korikong…HONG KONG!

(Acting as Mongoloid) Eeehhh aaahhhh…MONGOLIA!

Saan ang gimik? Sa Megamall or sa Glorietta?...SAMOA!

Red Tea, Green Tea, Iced Tea…TAHITI!

Ako ay bonggang-bongga, Walang kasing bongga, from…TONGA!

Amnesia, Anesthesia...INDONESIA!

One little, Two little, Three little…INDIA!

Singaone, Singatwo, Singathree...SINGAPORE

Taifour, Taithree, Taitwo...TAIWAN!

Tama ako, tama ka, tama tayong lahat...MALAYSIA!

Aray ko po, aray ko po, wag nyo po akong saktan...KAZAKHSTAN!

Parang Spam, Brick Ham, at Chinese Ham…ako ay malinamnam...VIETNAM!

Hindi na In, Hindi na Sikat, eh ano sya?... LAOS!

Move over Lutong Bahay…Here comes Lutong…MACAU!

Beauties of Europe:

EDSA, Ayala, Buendia…ESPAÑA!

Alms…spare me a piece of bread…I am...HUNGARY!

Mula sa bansa na unang nagpauso ng po, opo, at mano po…POLAND

One way, two way, there’s no other way...NORWAY!

Seduce me…I’m not Amy Perez, I’m Amy…AUSTRIA!

Palagi na lang ako…ako…ako...MONACO!

Taliba, Tiktik, People’s Tonight…BULGARIA!

Beauties of the Americas:

Baha doon, baha dito, baha sa buong mundo...BAHAMAS!

Ola! Areola! Arinola! Kaserola!...VENEZUELA!

Mula sa Bayan ng mapupulang Gumamela…GUATEMALA!

Tang ina mo wag kang pasaway...PARAGUAY!

Anna Karenina, Flor De Luna…ARGENTINA!

Ako po ang nawawalang kapatid ni Majah Salvador at Phillip Salvador…EL SALVADOR!

I'm sorry Sir, I'm sorry Ma'am...SURINAME!

Beauties of Africa:

Hindi sa akin, hindi sa yo, kanino sya?...KENYA!

Alin…alin…alin ang naiba. Isipin kung alin ang…naiba…NAMIBIA!

(Ala Nora Aunor) Isang beses ko lang sasabihin ito…hindi ako si Bembol Roco…MOROCCO!

From the land where nobody is less than nor greater than…SUDAN!

Ako po ay maganda, saksakan ng ganda, putang ina ang ganda from...UGANDA!

i swear halos ilang calls ang prematurely ended dhil sa kakatawa ko...haha

Its American Idol season once again. Season 8 and just like season 7, i focus more on who made it to the top 12. this season, the elimination for Top 12 was somehow different. anyways...

from the first group....Danny Gokey and Alexis Grace already made an impact on me.

Honestly, Hollywood week pa lng, na caught na ng attention ko si Danny Gokey. Could he be the next American idol....? Powerful vocal...may character ang lolo mo. not to mention cute sya dito.

Alexis Grace was superb. Her vocal remind me of Carly Smithson of season 7.

Adam Lambert...spell EMO hehe... iba din ang Emotion n lumalabas kung sya ay mag perform. Birit kung biritan na ang essence ay rock and roll..

and hre comes Kris Allen. damn hes hot hot hot!!! kamukha nya si Ruff. my friend from college, way back Ateneo days hahaha. His vocals? Powerful as well. gwapo nito, laglag ang dapat malaglag nung kumakanta ang lolo mo during the elimination round 2nd group ...

may nabasa akong article about American idol...things dat we could from this show. and i would agree na ala kang maitulak kabigin sa talent nila kung makapasok kna sa Top 12. parang nagkakalabanan n lamang kung anong klaseng attitude meron ka every time na kumakanta ka. on how you would react to the judges is a big thing to consider...

Pero yung Philippine version ng American idol, ung Pinoy Idol....sad to say, I feel disgusted by the show..nakakairita ang performance, alang kwenta ang pinagsasabi ng mga jugdes especially jolina and dat old fag hog...and to make things worst...c raymond Guttierez pa ang Host. eiwwww no wonder walang nakitang improvements sa mga nakapasok sa Top 12. Kumpara naman sa PDA n talagang nag s stand out ang mga nananalo..pero ok lang...Pinoy Idol was completely FORGETTABLE!!!

Im afraid. to no avail i do wanna lose him. i love him now. i swear i do love him. its something that im proud of. i have learned to love and be loved. i know for a fact now that im a normal human being. funny thou, but yes...im in love with him..

and at somepoint of our relationship. bigla na lamang akong natakot na mawala ang Amante ko. something im not prepared to happen. and i still wish, up to this very momment...ahhh mahirap namn mag pitch na naluluha ka.....up to this very momment then that I realized the value of him. ung essence na merong kang minamahal, ung essence na mahal ka rin ng taong mahal mo...ung point na ramdam nyo ang pagmamahal. ....

"....wala sayo ang diperensya, nasa akin, ayoko na madamay ka sa kalituhan ko...sa mga problema ko..magusap tayo bukas..."

kung sa sales, ang tawag dito ay buying signal, i jz nid to probe more to have an affirmative answer or to have a definite YES.

pero sa txt sakin ni Amante, malinaw na gusto na nyang pagusapan namin ang hiwalayan thing. because it could be that..napepressure na sya masyado sa work nya, padagdag pa ako sa bigat...magulo lang ang isip niya...or simply put..our relationship is a BIG LIE!!!!

"maybe you deserve somebody else..napakabait mong tao, at masyado na akong nagiging unfair sayo..."

sinabi ko kay brian na im guilty as charged na nagkakagusto ako sa ibang lalaki. at si sahid yun. alam ni sahid na may gusto ako sa kanya. bestfriend ni brian si sahid. mas naging malapit kami ni sahid as friends by being honest to him about what i feel for him...and only last night monday, wen i had decided n kakalimutan kna si Sahid, not our friendship, but my feelings for him...alam din ni Sahid yun, its more like a Bday gift for Amante....

now the question is..Bakit ngayon pa?

masama pala talaga sa health ang masaktan..or even the feelings of masasaktan kapa lamang...or when you anticipate for something Bad.

sabi ko kay connie...ayokong kumanta ng Love will lead you back.

Amante, Im not gonna let you go. ipaglalaban kita. i know this is the time when you need me most.