Philippines

Im afraid. to no avail i do wanna lose him. i love him now. i swear i do love him. its something that im proud of. i have learned to love and be loved. i know for a fact now that im a normal human being. funny thou, but yes...im in love with him..

and at somepoint of our relationship. bigla na lamang akong natakot na mawala ang Amante ko. something im not prepared to happen. and i still wish, up to this very momment...ahhh mahirap namn mag pitch na naluluha ka.....up to this very momment then that I realized the value of him. ung essence na merong kang minamahal, ung essence na mahal ka rin ng taong mahal mo...ung point na ramdam nyo ang pagmamahal. ....

"....wala sayo ang diperensya, nasa akin, ayoko na madamay ka sa kalituhan ko...sa mga problema ko..magusap tayo bukas..."

kung sa sales, ang tawag dito ay buying signal, i jz nid to probe more to have an affirmative answer or to have a definite YES.

pero sa txt sakin ni Amante, malinaw na gusto na nyang pagusapan namin ang hiwalayan thing. because it could be that..napepressure na sya masyado sa work nya, padagdag pa ako sa bigat...magulo lang ang isip niya...or simply put..our relationship is a BIG LIE!!!!

"maybe you deserve somebody else..napakabait mong tao, at masyado na akong nagiging unfair sayo..."

sinabi ko kay brian na im guilty as charged na nagkakagusto ako sa ibang lalaki. at si sahid yun. alam ni sahid na may gusto ako sa kanya. bestfriend ni brian si sahid. mas naging malapit kami ni sahid as friends by being honest to him about what i feel for him...and only last night monday, wen i had decided n kakalimutan kna si Sahid, not our friendship, but my feelings for him...alam din ni Sahid yun, its more like a Bday gift for Amante....

now the question is..Bakit ngayon pa?

masama pala talaga sa health ang masaktan..or even the feelings of masasaktan kapa lamang...or when you anticipate for something Bad.

sabi ko kay connie...ayokong kumanta ng Love will lead you back.

Amante, Im not gonna let you go. ipaglalaban kita. i know this is the time when you need me most.

Im a fan of Arnel Pineda..he makes me proud being a filipino!

ayun sa Wikipedia...

"Arnel Pineda (born September 5, 1967) is a Filipino singer-songwriter and is currently the lead singer of the American rock band Journey.[1] Pineda has enjoyed a successful musical career in Asia for the last 25 years. His singing style was influenced by Steve Perry (once of Journey), John Farnham (Little River Band), Freddie Mercury (Queen), Sting (The Police), Survivor, Heart, The Beatles, Van Halen, Aerosmith, U2, Warrant, Deep Purple, and other bands along these genres.[2]"

JOURNEY WELCOMES ARNEL PINEDA
WITH “OPEN ARMS” TO THEIR FAMILY
AS THE BAND’S NEW LEAD SINGER

i love the song open arms...damn napapamura ako. hehe.

anyways..the early life of Arnel Pineda includes..

"Arnel Pineda was born in Sampaloc, Manila, in the Philippines. His mother instilled his love for singing at an early age, encouraging him to sing along to songs from her favorite singers like Karen Carpenter and Barbra Streisand. Growing up, his parents entered him in many singing contests..."

and...until

December 5, 2007 -- After much speculation…the wait is finally over.

JOURNEY--Neal Schon (guitar), Jonathan Cain (keyboards), Ross Valory (bass), Deen Castronovo (drums)--is proud to introduce fans all over the world to their new lead singer, Arnel Pineda (“pin-eh-da”). He replaces Jeff Scott Soto, who parted ways with the band earlier this year after stepping in for Steve Augeri, who had to leave the band in 2006 for medical reasons.

pero ten years ago, Arnel Pineda was indeed a recording artist...ito sya oh....

gold hair..kapal ng make up.. :P
i was even wondering..paminta ba sya before? lol

Happy hearts Day..

hayyy Valentines day n nman. and as expected, ala pa din ang aking mahal na Amante. Hes still in Vietnam. haaayy i cant wait for hte 19th to come. pagdating nya nlng cguro kmi mag celebrate ng mga namiss nmin. which includes...

jan 10, - my 25th bday
feb 5, - our 5th month of loving each other
and now, feb 14 - valentines day.

I swear, this is the first time n hindi ako single sa Valentines day. however, ala naman sya sa Pilipinas.

on the other hand, alam ko namang marami kaming dapat isipin and iprioritize. this day actually serves more like a mask to cover up the stress. And im loving this...medyo excited lang naman ako sa mga mangyayari.

c Sahid. he makes me smile. Hes making me realize that being gay and out is not a hindrance to have a good friendship wid a straight guy. khit alam nyang may gusto ako sa kanya. sana lang wag akong ma inlove sa kanya ng bongga.

c Amante, what can i say about him. mahal ko ang tao. tamaan ka nga naman ng lintek.

happy hearts day sa inyong dalawa. happy valentines day sa lahat.....

Grrr ... its good to be back..haha nkakainis kc halos nawalan nko chance mag update ng kung anong meron ako dito sa travellerspoint. ive been thru a lot anyway but things are doin just fine nman wid me.
its a complete disasster yung paglipat ko sa excelsys.com or the so called FFCC or simply kina JOEY. it was a gud learning experience of survival thou. akalain mo ba namang ihold ang sweldo nyo simply becoz alang pera ang comp. and to no avail..ala silang sinasabi kung kelan ibibgay. yup, it was delayed for like a wik or almost 9 days. and the good thing about what happen is that nalaman kong andami kong mga kaibigan. hindi nila ako pinabayaan. anjan si Brian na kasama ko sa paghihirap na ito. sabay kmi umalis sa havenlink at nakipagsapalaran at nabwisit..pero everytime n may pera syang nahihiram, he make sure na meron din ako.
si carlo na nagpahiram din sakin ng pera, wid matching sermon kung bakit ba kasi ako umalis ng havenlink thou paulit ulit ko namang sinasabi sa kanila that ive made my decision to move on.

and most of all, ang si sahid. the crush of my life.( infidelity toink ) naman..super gusto ko itong friend ko na ito..and were friends talaga..but thats not the issue..ayun, nagbibigay sya sakin ng pera the time na kelangan ko. nahihiya man akong kunin, pero ayoko din maglakad at magutom...i swear, lalo akong humanga sa pagkakaibigan namin.

and bcoz of this tragic devastating pagkagutom ko ( wid brian as well)..napunta kami sa Acquire Asia pacific phils. hehe yup. panibagong paglilipat na naman. anyways its was a good Big risk. after all, kelangan ko ng trabaho..i have bills to pay, i have to rent to maintain every month and of corz, i have a lifestyle to maintain..chus!!!

sa acquire asia nakatrabaho ko uli si ate fong...sya ang nag reffer samin ni Brian. so sya ang kikita ng bonggang bonggang sampong libo sa refferral fee.

may mga nareffer din ako. they are willing to work here. the fact is, they are the one who asked me to reffer them here. so yun, sana lang kumita diin ako para mapalitan kna ang TV ko at makabili uli ako ng DVD player..damn miss kna manood ng PORN!!!

pumunta na uli c Amante for Vietnam. Balik nya sa 23 of this month. Request daw ng companya sa vietnam were hes currently working on a certain project. ok fine, so wala sya sa birthday ko dis saturday. both of us were saddened by this thing but its something we cant control. so kahit na medyo may sakit pa sya, dumerecho kami ng airport last wednesday nyt, hinatid ko sya. pagpauwi ko, sa taxi pa lang ay bonggang sinisipon na rin ako. nahawa na ako ng kanyang sakit. ok lang, masaya naman kami pareho.

dis monday, sasakay na ng barko ang aking kapatid. sa wakas matutupad na rin pangarap nyang maging marinero. bukas magbabyahe na dito sina Mama at Papa. nandito sila para sa Birthday ko dis saturday. Ansaya lang. pero wala pa rin ako sa mood mag celebrate. hehe

Kagabi, Jan 7, ay nag aaply nako dun sa call center were Lahlah worked. Puamasa naman ako sa mga bonggang kulelat na myembro ng HR at ung naginterview sakin. Ewan. basta sa Jan 19, magsisimula nako sa kanila. early bday gift hehe

mamimiss ko ang havenlink. maraming mga magagandAng nangyari sakin sa kumpanyang ito. marami akong natutunan. dito ko naranasan ang bongang bongang pagmamahal ng mga kaibigan na walang halong kaplastikan. although hindi naman lahat eh kasiyahan and all, pero talagang masaya ako sa ambiance dito sa havenlink. its just that i, or rather we need to move on.

6 working days na lamang ang ilalagi ko dito sa Havenlink. filing ko tuloy..ako si karyle ng lumipat sya sa dos. may mag iinterview din kAya sakin at magtatanong kung buntis ba si Marian Rivera..