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October 3 to 6 sana ang sked ko ng pagpunta ng Ilo ilo, but then Amante is not available by October 3. may prior commitment daw sya. corporate affairs. He asked me to move my schedule n the next fri. i have no problem with that. its just that i cant wait to be with him na.

we frequently talk to each other. always keeping in touch. making sure that things are just fine with him. he sometimes call while driving. he knows i hate it. sometimes he would deny that hes driving but then i have ways of knowing. haha I guess i just know him well now.

Cebu pacific has its ongoing promo. i asked Amante if the fare matrix is ok. its already cheap, actually. very worth it. theres only one problem now. i dont have the cash yet. but i can always find ways.

there are a lot of things to consider on this trip. me bein adventorous can always relate and fit in myself. more of a survivor. maximizing kng ano lang ang meron at gagawin ang nararapat makaraos lamang.

wala akong masyado matanungan kng ano ang pwede at mga dpat kng ihanda. since ayoko munang ikwento sa aking mga friendship dhil it might give them wrong impressions. or basta...nag iingat lamang ako for Amante.

hindi ko pa din natatanong kay amante kung ano ba pwede namin gawin dun. over weekend naman sya eh,madami na sinabi si Amante, like we can go to Bacolod, we can go to Boracay or watever...but then, mas preferred ko kahit ano lang, pwede naman na sa bahay nlng kami.
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isa pa pla yung problema. nakatira si amante sa staff house nila. Regional officer sya ng pharma company, hawak nya maraming areas. pero nakatira sya now sa staff house nila. but hes already doing something about this. like hes requested already for a housing allowance so he could move out sa staff house nila. kya cguro pagpunta ko dun sana eh may bahay na sya.

is it a prerequisite ba?n dapat may bahay na sya? i dont know basta ang alam ko kelangan ko syang makasama uli kasi hes special. i wanna prove to him that i could love him more that what he is expecting. that its worth everything basta magkasama kami.

so basta dpat maayos kng ano pwede naming gawin pra alam ko din kng ano ang dadalhin ko.

ill just cross the bridge when i get there. as of now,. isa lang ang alam ko. eveything happens for a reason. kung ano man ang reason kng bakit ko sya nakilala, or what have we to share, it doesnt matter na. the langguage of love is spoken by heart. echuserang frog.

sunday morning ....i woke up wid amante beside me. his arms wrapped and his legs on mine making him my human blanket. thou this hang over is making its way to penetrate me, the feeling is wonderful to wake up that morning wid someone kissing you.

then, realized that he is leaving for Ilo Ilo at 3.30pm. and i offered na ako na rin ang maghatid sa kanya sa airport.

and he kissed me. enough to say his appreciation.

hes just another gorgeous face in the crowd. hes wearing a cap. maulan kc sa labas. i take my chances at ngumiti sa kanya. a welcome smile haha or paglalandi or i guess lasing lng cguro ako.... and ngumiti nman sya, just before he leave me wanting for more.

the night is getting deeper and im beggining to get bored. i decided to take one last bottle of beer and call it a night. then i feel his presence...and slowly our bodies become one. oo, parang yung kantang crazy for you.hehe

"somebody got lucky tonight at ako yun.."

then we talk. we got to know each other.di lang puro sex ang nangyayari dat night. we talk and we talk. taking chances.slowly we begin to know the character of each other....and he offered to take me home.

i said no, i better not go home wid him kc bisita lang din xa. nakakahiya sa kababata nya. nakikituloy xa for the mean time sa kababata nya. ok fine. sa dinami dami nyang sinabi, mga promising lines...mga mabubulaklak n salita..i dared him to say those things in the morning or soon after n pagkagising nya. ill do mine as well.

sabay kmi umuwi, ako, sya at ang kanyang kababata.kumain muna kami sa ministop sa kanto. we decided to see each other again the next day. ill give him a visit instead of goin home with him....fair deal hehe and then he lay down his card.

"visit me in Ilo Ilo next month, and youll have me. ill have commitment wid you and its more than enough to be serious wid you..i know your worth keeping."

and out of the blue..bwakanang walang isip isip. sumagot agad ako ng "OO ill be there to be with you.."

he hold my hand. pinisil nya ito, he cant let go of his smile, i guess di nya ineexpect ang sagot ko..and i guess the feeling is mutual.hehe

4pm nko nagising. i txted him ryt away and pumunta nga ako sa Caloocan..another trip, another chance, suntok sa buwan.

he introduced me to his childhood friends. we had dinner wid dem. tpos naginuman. hanggang sa may dumating pa uling kaibigan. he keep on asking me how do i find them? theyre just fine i said..im hre to see you, not to be with them.

and we kissed. feeling each others lips, the tenderness and warmth of his hug. making the most of each momment.

and again, he asked me to spend the night there. wag n daw ako umuwi. sure naman..madami na rin ako nainom.but i assure him n kaya ko pang sumakay ng taxi. then he insist on me staying......hayup!
syet lang tlga..haha how flattering..in full honesty hes special na.

and at dat sunday morning, heaven ang pakiramdam. khit puyat, khit pagod, khit nahihilo ng konti dhil sa hang over..it does feel wonderful. it really feels great to have someone.

ako nga ang naghatid sa kanya sa airport. sa taxi, ay halos hindi ko mabitawan ang kanyang kamay. yes ill miss him now. im not expecting to feel this way..i told myself im not ready yet, but who am i kidding? i know its a lie. this isnt my escape for the bad break up with leo. its time to move on and i just did. the situation is similar. only this time medyo malayo. however, what is at stake is very much different., thou dis time, i have to be so sure that its love now im playing into.

another trip, another chance of falling in love...and im halfway of getting there!!!

cebu pacific has their ongoing promo for domestic flights. im planning to see him by october 3...as promised.i miss him so much i only have his pictures.

at kelangan ko ng magpapayat for him. damn i hate my bilbil.para nkng c pig sa bilbil ko.

outbound kami..never pa ako sa inbound...

at dahil nga super long weekend kami, namiss ko tlaga ang aking pitch..namiss ko din ang bumenta..namiss ko din ang sigaw na "Good Job ernie.one take Ten..!!!"

pati ang ingay ni bev sa tuwing nagpipitch xa...

ang ngiti ni chona tuwing nkikipagdaldalan xa sakin...

ang irate mode n si Pam n laging may kasagutan n client.

at ang natutulog n si jessa.

i never thought masaya pla talaga ang call centre. haha

saturday..natulog lang ako maghapon. nagisisng ako ng hapon. kumain.at nahiga uli. nakatulugan ko nga ang TV eh, nmalayan ko n lng Celebrity Duets na..too lazy to turn off the TV, nkatulog uli ako.Imbestigador na ng bumangon nko. kumain ng konti, tpos sinimulan kna ang DVD marathon.
Johnny Depp movies ang pinagtripan ko..salamat kay pam.

4am na nang mkaramdam ako uli ng gutom. for the longest time n nakatira ako sa life homes, noon lang ako nakarinig ng tilaok ng manok. lumabas kasi ako at naghanap ng makakain.target ko ang mainit n pandesal sa kanto.

tinapos ko n lamang yung movie tsaka ako natulog uli. 10.30am nko nagising ng sunday. niyaya ako ni JR n sumama sa swimming kaso nka OO nko kay ate Fong n pupuntahan ko xa ds sunday dhil may pansit daw s kanila. Go nman ako.

sa makati sya nakatira near Walter Mart. syempre di ko alam ang way. ako namn itong Aligaga tlga pagdating s mga directions..

sumakay me ng FX byaheng Ayala. bumaba ako ng glorietta, hinanap ko ang park Square kc doon daw ako sasakay ng Jip byaheng libertad..walk nman ang ako hanap ang park square n itoh...tanong tanong..basa basa..tanong tanong..ng nasa glorietta nko, tinanong ko yung guard kng nsan ang park Square. ngumiti si manong guard at eto ang sinabi nya..

"sir, humakbang po kayo ng dalawa, tangalin mo po shades mo at tumingala kayo.makikita nyo na po ang park square"

napahiya ako sa sarili ko syempre. nkasakay nko sa jip pero natatawa pa rin ako sa sarili ko.pero si manong guard in fairness di xa suplado!

well,sunday afternoon, nsa bahay ako ni ate fong. bwakanang mataba pa rin si taba. at Bday ng pamangkin nya kya pla may pansit at videoke. super kantahan ang mga tita at pinsan nya, at dahil nga they are from visayas, so the accent was there..nakakatuwa at sobrang nabusog ako. medyo napainom nga ako ng konti, konti lang kasi napasayaw nila ako. punyetang nakakahiya tlga.

gabi n ng akoy nakauwi like around 10 na. hinatid ako ni eric ksi hinatid ko sya sa place nya kya hinatid nya rin ako sa sakayan. hehe pero nakarating ako sa pad ko 3am na. saan kya ko pumunta? or sino kya ang pinuntahn ko. hmmnnn

tpos ng monday morning.nilakad kna ang mga dapat lakarin.pmunta ako s PAGIBIG pra ifile ang aking loan. so far wala nman aberya, i just have to wait for a week kc iveverify pa daw ung merging ng contributions ko.

dumerecho ako s Megaclinic sa megamall for my check up. ok lng nman. since i miss the annual physical exam kc kya ako nlng nag initiate n magpa chek up. mabuti na ang sigurado sa health.so far so good naman. pinababalik nlng ako for the result.

around 4.30 ako natapos sa mega clinic. kya naisipankong mkipagkita sa bestfriend kong c connie.i call her manga. not bcoz she owns manga but bcoz

"Manga Manga hinog kna ba?"

hehe maganda xa noh?

namasyal kmi sa Mall of Asia.quality time namin uling magbestfriend. at syempre dhil maarte ang lola mong manga nagpalibre n nman skin s dinner. sa mang inasal nlng daw kc sawa n sya sa mcdo at jollibee. bwakanang pumili pa ng makakainan.akala mo sya ang babayad.

super sale sa FnH, may mga sale items din s PRP pero nmili ako ng shirt sa hang ten. mas sosyal daw kc. hehe

im too exhausted dat night. salamat n lamang at nakauwi pa ako ng maayos. borlog agad ako pagkabihis ng pagkabihis ko. tuesday alas onse ng tanghali nko nagising.

at syempre dahil nga super super long weekend kami. DVD n nman ako hanggang sa maisipan kong bisitahin ang aking mahal n pamangkin sa may labasan ng lifehomes. kagandahan nito ay nakalibre ang aking dinner. tpos naginuman pa kami ni butak.ang hiwalay n aswa ng aking pinsan.

wednsday ng tanghali ng tintxt ako ni harry n pumunta daw ako sa kanila dhil nagluto ang lolo mo, marami daw ulam. go naman ako.sino ba ang tatanggi sa grasya. after kumain ay nagshot shot muna kami pampatulog daw. ayun tuloy kabaligtaran ang nangyari dhil hindi ako nakatulog. bwakanginang alas nueve na ng gabi at pagod na pagid na pagod na pagod nko kakaeffort n makatulog.kya ang ginawa koy naligo n lamang ako.anyways wala ng dating dahil
alas onse dpat nsa opisina na ako.

kya eto ako ngayon,first few hours pa lamang eh haggard na ako.kainis. ito ba ang tinatawag nilang Monday sickness...?eh myerkules na ngayon ah..!!!

kpag akoy nababato..pinaglalaruan ko ang birdie ko.haha pero kng minsan cguro ay di lang birdie ko ang pinaglalaruan ko. may mga pwedeng pang paglaruan jan. itoy nasa merkado n nga actually. mahilig dito ang mga vaklushi, chuding, bading, paminta, babae at matrona and the like...

got this s blog ni batjay..isang OFW s Californias n dati daw supot. haha his blog is amazing. ne never fails to make me laugh.

ito ang site nya.. www.kwentongtambay.com

i got this message from yep last week. its only now that the essence of this quote sinked on my empty head. hehe

"...not all people that's good to you, are true to you as well....

so learn to weigh things, be vigilant enough to secure what's yours, provide boundary to your conversation...

because you'll never know when a pretending good person turns into a deceitful bastard."

mahirap akong magalit. its very rare nga n nagagalit ako sa isang tao eh. madali akong mairita or mainis.pero magalit? ewan..ibang usapan na yan... basta.

ngayon eh madali n akong mairita. lately, some people around me are really pissing me off. like, if i have d power to made them dissapear, ill do it ryt away.

nakakairita kasi.

oo ang iba sa kanila kaibigan ko. like may mga pinagsamahan n kami khit papano. but then, eto n ang nraramdaman ko s kanya. just a mere sound of this persons voice..iritado nko.

eto pa. merong isang sawa n pkalat kalat s floor. like this person is already wid dis company since time in memmorial. survivor nga ang taong ito eh. if this person's name n ang nakataya sa isang gulo or this persons stake on promotions is nanganganib, wala itong sinasanto..khit wala ka pang ginagawang masama..matakot ka dhil ang hukay mo ay handa na para yurakan at tapakan di lamang pangalan mo kundi pati n rin ang pagkatao mo. yes, character assault ito. just to think n friendly xa s lahat. di masyadong approchable, pero di mo makikitaan n killer monster pla ang taong ito. nakakatakot.

at naiirita ako s kanya. this persons character is one thing i wont become.i wish worldly ambitions and intellectual pride wont consume me.

siguro natatakot lang ako. siguro bitter n namn ako. siguro may problema n nman ako. o bka nman kulang n nman ako s pahinga.

i have decided (dis is not the first) to forget leo. like its over now. i mean, im done loving him. im done with dis stupidity, like im still hoping n magkakabalikan nga kami. damn, theres no regrets of loving him, it was indeed the best love ive got. but then again, what is done is done. i can ever myself "move on BITCH!!!"

eh minahal ko yung tao eh. what wud u expect..?

but then again, im done hoping. im done with him. but the things that i learned with him will always be cherished.

at s mga nakakainis n tao s floor at s ofis...bwakanang magbago sana ang ihip ng hangin.